Sunday, November 22, 2009
The reality of it all...
I struggle with what to post to my blog. I know this is a common problem. I want you to know me. I want you to see the "real" me, to convey my heart in the posts here. While it's true that, by nature, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I also don't want to be the kind of person who verbally vomits on those around her. Do you know what I mean? The person that tells you her life story in the middle of the aisle at Wal Mart on a busy Sunday and you only made time to run in to buy toilet paper, and an hour later she's still talking....I'm not talking about a heart-to-heart talk, here. I'm talking about someone who tells you things whether you want to hear it or not. I don't want to force my problems on you, so if you'd rahter not read this post...PLEASE feel free to skip it and just look at the pretty pictures. I promise I won't be offended!!!!!
( The pictures at the top of the post are from an Estate sale I went to today...I got all that fabulousness for $3.00!!! Totally worth the 30 minute drive!)
Anyways...the reality is...I'm gonna share a tiny bit of the hard stuff with you all. If only to reach out to those who have gone through it before, or maybe to encourage those who are going through it right now.
In July, my husband and I separated after almost 17 years of marriage. It was my choice and it was only after YEARS of heartache and counseling and prayer and agony. It wasn't a decision I made lightly. We have 3 children together, and I had a daughter who was 4 when we married.
I stayed home with the kids all those years, and so leaving him changed EVERYTHING! I had to get a job.
He moved out, but my Mom will be moving in soon.
But, for the first time in my life, I am in charge of my life. Thats HUGE, for me. I am losing weight (which I've needed to do for, oh, probably 15 years!) I feel so much stronger and healthier in every way, so, don't worry about me, please! I am TOTALLY gonna make it!
Well, there it is...the reality of my life. I hope you'll leave a comment if you stuck it out and read all this. I would love to hear from you. And, wwe can encourage each other, right? That's what friends are for. Even if we're just cyber-friends!