I struggle with what to post to my blog. I know this is a common problem. I want you to know me. I want you to see the "real" me, to convey my heart in the posts here. While it's true that, by nature, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I also don't want to be the kind of person who verbally vomits on those around her. Do you know what I mean? The person that tells you her life story in the middle of the aisle at Wal Mart on a busy Sunday and you only made time to run in to buy toilet paper, and an hour later she's still talking....I'm not talking about a heart-to-heart talk, here. I'm talking about someone who tells you things whether you want to hear it or not. I don't want to force my problems on you, so if you'd rahter not read this post...PLEASE feel free to skip it and just look at the pretty pictures. I promise I won't be offended!!!!!
( The pictures at the top of the post are from an Estate sale I went to today...I got all that fabulousness for $3.00!!! Totally worth the 30 minute drive!)
Anyways...the reality is...I'm gonna share a tiny bit of the hard stuff with you all. If only to reach out to those who have gone through it before, or maybe to encourage those who are going through it right now.
In July, my husband and I separated after almost 17 years of marriage. It was my choice and it was only after YEARS of heartache and counseling and prayer and agony. It wasn't a decision I made lightly. We have 3 children together, and I had a daughter who was 4 when we married.
I stayed home with the kids all those years, and so leaving him changed EVERYTHING! I had to get a job.
He moved out, but my Mom will be moving in soon.
But, for the first time in my life, I am in charge of my life. Thats HUGE, for me. I am losing weight (which I've needed to do for, oh, probably 15 years!) I feel so much stronger and healthier in every way, so, don't worry about me, please! I am TOTALLY gonna make it!
Well, there it is...the reality of my life. I hope you'll leave a comment if you stuck it out and read all this. I would love to hear from you. And, wwe can encourage each other, right? That's what friends are for. Even if we're just cyber-friends!
7 comments:
Hi Tammy,
God Bless You, dear. I'm sure this decision was not made lightly, and very difficult for you to make. Your spirit sounds lighter already. I'm sure your Mother will be a big source of support for you. Enjoy your life ~ we only go around once. :)
Blessings
Kitty
Hi Tammy,
This much be a very difficult time for you, but it sounds like you're a tough lady with a resilient spirit. Happy to hear you have your mom there to support you and help with your little ones!
Michelle xoxo
Tammy,
My heart goes out to you. Some journeys in life can be so hard. I read a great quote from C.H. Spurgeon that lends hope to those wildnerness experiences: "When my schoolroom is darkened, I see most."
No doubt you've learned much; and wisdom of this depth can cost a lot as we go through the difficult steps. Here's thanking you for the courage to share and undoubtedly your transparency will give hope to others who find themselves walking through a dark place.
~and by the way, love your new wrapper around the blog! And your estate sale finds might have been a smile from heaven to let you know that He will provide.
xo
Sue
YOU GO GIRL! I am proud of you and you are giving me inspiration in my own life that I feel as though is soinning out of control...good to have a friend..HUH?
Hey, are you going to sell some of that fab stuff or just keep it all to yourself??? LOL
XOXOXOXO Thinking of You
I've been in your situation before. Luckily your Mom can move in and help you. You know you did the right thing. Now just put one put in front of the other (no matter how hard it seems), and I promise you'll have more success in your life then you'd ever dreamed. It happened to me and looking back, I'd never have believed it! Keep the faith!
Warmly,
Sheila
Best wishes and positive thoughts are being sent to you. It sounds like you have already made the tough decision and just need to deal with everything a day at a time. How great that your mom can move in! I have a friend with two kids that when she divorced her husband, her recently widowed mother and her grandmother moved in. This Christmas they sent a picture----3 strong women and two teenagers. Seems like it is working very well for everyone. My best to you. I just found your blog and love it----------Nicki
Hello, I was just Blog-Hopping and ran across your blog. Very well written!
Lisa
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